I push the sliding backdoor open and step into my screened in back porch. The hot air slaps me in the face! I mean, I really feel assaulted. By the air. I am still a Texas newbie. We’ve been here for 8 years now, but I think that in Texas, it takes about 40 or 50 years to even be considered a Texan. At least.
We are currently experiencing a heatwave. I believed that all of my former 7 summers here could easily be described as a heatwave, but this is different. It is only halfway through June and our weather is in the danger zone. It is scary hot. Yesterday as I walked from the grocery store to my car, I remembered our hot weather back in California. California heat felt like an enveloping, surrounding oven of warmth. Texas heat feels like a microwave. Cooking us from the inside out.
Sorry about that. I got carried away with the weather report when what I really wanted to talk about was the odd and comforting sensation that happens to me when I step into the water. If you know me, you know I adore my pool. I yammer on about it every summer. I keep trying to understand why it is such a powerful thing for me.
Then I saw the picture above, and had to have it. It says, “Into the water I go. To lose my mind and find my soul.” Perfect.
Every single time I slice into the water, I have the same overwhelming sensation. And by “slice”, I mean more like a very chunky butter knife than a nice sleek carving knife.
It is a feeling of leaving my cares behind. I float on my back and look at the trees swaying above and all is right with the world. Even though, of course, very little is right with the world. My pulse slows down, my worries tend to sink to the bottom of the pool and I feel God. After a while, I often pick up a worry from the bottom of the pool and I am able to see it differently, from a new perspective. I sense new options and maybe even new solutions.
Does it have something to do with “losing my mind and finding my soul”? I believe that it does. “Mindfulness” is a popular buzzword right now, for good reason. Being a mindful parent, spouse, friend, creative, is important and enriching.
But, it is also vital that we “lose our minds” a bit too. In my book I chat a bit about taking our thoughts captive. That is a church and Bible phrase that describes being the boss of your brain. (2 Corinthians 10:3-5) Choosing where you will let your thoughts take you and refusing to allow them to pull you down and lie to you. I guess it could also be called, being mindful of your mind.
Maybe when I slip into my swimming pool, I am also slipping away from my over-thinking mind and allowing my soul, my inner spirit to move into the drivers seat? I think that God approves. I recall the same sensation when hugging my husband tightly on the back of his motorcycle. It was a wonderful mixture of exhilarating and calming, an escape from laundry, meal prep and all cares.
What helps you to lose your mind and find your soul? When I googled this phrase, I found lots of different uses for it. “Into my garden I go. To lose my mind and find my soul” was one of the many ways it has been used. I know that my mom would have felt that way about her garden, and now my daughter-in-law is newly discovering the joys of gardening.
Sewing, knitting, writing, painting, running, are all possible avenues for you to find the same delicious sensation that I have when I get into my pool. Your mind needs a rest. Your body needs for your mind to rest. I love podcasts, my devices, Pandora. But I desperately require some silence too. Even silence of my brain. Wow, is my brain noisy! Meditating on nothing does not work for me. The inner activity can be frenetic and depressing if allowed to continue without a break.
So, Into the water I go, to lose my mind and find my soul. How will you lose your mind today? Even for a few minutes. A good book, a game of Wordle, a walk around the block or a snuggle with a dog, these are all lovely options.
This morning I swam at 8 am because even the pool water gets too warm later in the day here in Texas. Who ever heard of it being too hot to swim? Another newbie discovery.